We have lived through this so many times in our marriage. It’s broken us so many times and that’s hard to come back from. I live in constant fear of another job loss. It gives me anxiety even when things are good. Major anxiety. The last time, we had a seven week old and I was still on maternity leave. Totally ruined that experience of maternity leave. I will forever associate that beautiful period with our daughter with incredible stress, sadness, and anger.